Magnets & Miracles

Xbox 360 is a beauty, the thought of having one is what probably everyone should always have and the one’s that already have it, screw you guys, I’m gonna catch up with all of you sooner or later, Euro 2008 has by far been extremely stupid, the games have been kick ass, a good offense is always a delight to watch, a good defense is better IMO, television is such a bitch, when you have all the time in the world, there is nothing on it and when there is absolutely nothing but work to do, there’s always all the good things that life has to offer on it, the celluloid space has always been marketer’s dream land. Punch here, kick there, roll up and at the end of it, give them away the awards to make them better crap than before, i remember the advertisements for their msg or direction or the actors or script but definitely not for the brand that they endorse. It’s weird wanting some one to notice everything and still want to come buy your product. God save the world from marketing, Im sure when he made the world, if he made the world, Marketing was the last thing on his mind, he knew that things would be simple, there would be no ratio analysis, direct marketing and succession planning. I mean who would want to know all these things in their right frame of mind, I would not hence in all classes im intoxicated with the addictive called “indifference”

I suddenly check my mail account and clear the SPAM messages, I mean if there is some one out there in the world who is most optimistic about cheating/fooling people and making money out of it, these are the people who send SPAM messages, there are firewalls, anti-SPAM programs, filters and what not, but still the message is not clear to them, occasionally few mails come to the Inbox where their life span is like 10 minutes but I still get them now and then to test my luck, to let myself know that I have a demand draft that i have to pick up and since they are customer oriented (marketing again !) they would want you to fill up a professional looking form so that they can squeeze all of the money that your card has left for the month to fill up and buy what ? I guess CD’s, online shopping for clothes is stupidity, so is online food ordering, I mean, i know what happens when you look at the menu of Pizza Hut and expect  a monster to arrive on ur plate when all you have is a two inch long item which can be gulped in like 2.5 milli seconds ? Either people are foolish or the laws protecting the citizens of this country are flawed beyond repair, I mean thats cheating, take the photograph of the dish and then paste it in the menu, not the one with all the neatness around with the dish looking like manna.

Common sense is the last thing that i would be discussing in here, so i wont and i will at the day, when nothing but that would be the last thing to be discussed, i always thought on death bed, I’d rather fool around for some action than die in pain that I know of, well, the way i see it, I will anyways have an insurance cover that will be protecting me and ofcourse the hundreds of employees of that organisation checking records and files of me so that I do not get that damn money, they’d be happy if they’d pay nothing but for the funeral service and it’s a lot unlike what it used to be, the rates of wood used in the pyres have shot up thanks to inflation, I want an onion, i buy it for what ? 30 bucks and repent while cutting it, Onion alone justifies its price, everything else is just tasty dead cells.

Im still alive and breathing, Im in Bangalore and im beginning to like that place, which is kinda scary. I’m in Hyderabad while i write this but i know i’ll have to fly back to Hell’s Kitchen tomorrow.

A lot of things are on my mind, firstly, Little Miss Sunshine, maybe now, maybe not, anyways, im leaving home for a while and will be back asap. This time im determined i will get the necessary marks, its really important for me to score well and do my best, all these years, its been a formality, now its absolute necessity. I know why, I dont want to miss sitting for an other round of placements all together, i know how it feels to not sit one. Anyways, there are few things that i want to look forward to and few things that make me feel sick in the stomach, the things that make me feel sick in the stomach are

1) Why people accept everything that they are told and why they don’t question things and specially authority.

2) Why Independent Thinking is restricted in India and the World.

Probably its just these 2 things that make me feel uncomfortable at this moment, there should not be more than these. I’m building my website finally that Shridhar has gifted me on my last birthday, its such a nice gift to have anytime. Im going back to Bangalore, there are lot of things to be done and lot of things to being, well, i just hope i have enough strength to carry things on !

And then, its Christ College, Bangalore, where id be studying my PGDM, Post Graduate Diploma in Management, my post graduation, i just cannot believe that i will be graduating and be reporting to Christ College on June 1st, 2007. Its funny to me, definitely funny, the way it all seems is strange, id be walking around with a lappie in my arm, with my blazer neatly pressed and a good-boy-hair-cut, its so funny to think of it all, this is what i’ve been waiting through out my final year and when it finally came by, all i did is watch it pass without a smile and tell myself, this shall also pass, in a moment all i dreamed of turned up-side down and back side front, i mean is this what i have been wanting or is this everything i ever dreamed of ? Maybe not, but then this moment looks like it is everything i ever wanted, maybe a little late, im just not able to decide i shall be doing this all in an other city, with new people, environment to cope with and most importantly this shall be my first long stint outside home and i dont know how it all shall end up. Its not a challenge staying outside home, it sure is to concentrate and make urself a better man, through all the time.

Who’s to say where the wind will take you,
Who’s to say where the wind will break you,
I dont know which way the wind will blow,
Who’s to know that time has come around,
Dont want to see you cry,
I know that, this is not good bye.

A new year and the old one’s already gone, its been a nice year and not so nice, but then its the ritual of time to keep ticking and well leave people off their calendars and re-setting analog watches, the year at college was nice, made new friends, re made friends who’re already friends which helped us bond better, met interesting people, got lots of compliments, gave many, its been a year like any other, few successes and lots of failures, as we mature day by day our view and perspective towards things change, towards people changes more, the best thing as always said by Anirudh is “We dont jugde our school friends cos basically we grew up not judging them and we wont ever” and its true. Well, Think !

Anyways, i wont dwelve into all details of things, i sincerely wish the best of everything for all you guys, be good, hopefully, it will return back to you

Aaaah, Engineering Labs, 4 years, 13 labs ( Damn i just counted now, i didnt have a clue too ) Wonder what we learnt, all i remember is writing endlessly the record and the observation and in the end getting 60’s out of 75, damn, these people make us feel as if they give marks out of their salary.

Few Interesting things from my labs

1) In the first lab of my life, EDC, Electronic Devices and Circuits, my VIVA-VOCE lasted for 30 seconds, i owe it to my genius.

Lecturer - What is SCR ?

The Correct Answer - Silion Controlled Rectifier

I say : South Central Railway

Isnt that genius, he immediately asked me to leave the lab, i was confused for a while about what was happenning but since he asked me leave, i thought to myself what the heck and left, it was kinda nice, though he put me “0″ in the VIVA-VOCE out of 5 marks, didnt matter to me then, but when i look back at it now, its so funny, the look on his face was enough to make me understand that things went really really really wrong. That was first year, an other lab that really made my genius need a jolt in its head.

Vani is sitting beside me and she finishes the program, well, she almost does, what she does is writes some shit in “C” and then puts them all as comments, while simply printing the answer she wants, Mr. Venu Gopal our then CDS Sir ( Thanks Sir, it was so nice being in your class ) comes and then executes the program for just one variable that she defines and he’s happy with the output and asks her to leave, while i sit in the lab for 3 hours without doing anything and screwing up VIVA-VOCE like never before and left the place, he put her 74 and put 70 for me :), Damn that was so cool, Hehe, his theory classes were the funniest, One insane lecturer who really jelled with the kids.

Next is the Electrical Lab that we had some time in II Year, from second year i went fully loaded to the labs, never without the essentials, cos i knew, it were them and them alone i could trust, cos all it took to make them was like 10 min and it helped me through 3 hours and some other poor souls who actually tried studying and then failed to comprehend and got confused, anyways, it was amazing.

I complete writing the given experiment given to me and take it to the Lecturer

Lecturer - Hmmmm, Well, THIS IS WRONG, REDRAW THE CIRCUIT DIAGRAM.

What the Fuck, i copied it and u tell me its wrong, i just couldnt argue with him, i couldnt show him the chit paper and damn, he troubled me soooooo much, it took Avanti to convince him that what she drew and what i drew were the same and it was correct and i just interconnected some shit with others to simplify the circuit diagram which i had to solve and prove it to him later ( Now Playing : Bloodbath - Breeding Death, Love this song \\m// ), i copied everything just connected the circuit for the sake of it, the resistor got really hot and i had to put some water on it from the bottle beside me, wonder what happened to it after i did it, i never saw it again in my life.

Vani is a genius, Hehe, in LDIC lab, she took the output from an other CRO and went home saying she got the output, i royally screwed it all, there was nothing i could do, i could not even say if the resistors and other things were working well i actually threw the resistor i had on the ground and gently patted it with my tender feet, it was such a relief i then could tell the lab ( ***** ) assistant that it was spoilt cos i accidentally stepped on it, owing to my size he was forced to give or else i would’ve stepped on him, ass-clown, aaah LDIC lab was such a pain, I will never know and wont even try to connect things on Bread-Board and CRO, they are ultimately repulsive and i dislike them from the core, Yikes. Specially the whole lab had to be done using Bread-Board and i really hated every moment i spent there, some shit it was.

Lots and lots of labs and lots of memories, will click the pics of all the labs and post them here ASAP, damn, no matter how much i hate the place, i love the people there and that what makes the college a-must-visit-daily-place Hehe, some love for the place and the environment.

Its been a while since i wrote anything anywhere, firstly started a blog to write reviews of Metal Albums, hopfully i should update it once in 2 weeks, but thats long, lotsa things on my mind these days first among them is October 27th ( Damn, Divi u got me to sign it ), hopefully principal should give us the permission to do the project in Indian Institue of Chemical Technology, im so thankful to Vignesh, he’s done all the ground work and just left me the job of writing a letter to the principal to accept our request, again, hopefully it should work out, exams in less than a month and i just keep watching vidoes of metal songs, i know its not gonna work, to study too wont, Its been a while, i like this song by Staind, the first line itself is “Its been a while, since i held my head up high”, made me think of lots of things, its amazing how songs mean so many things to so many people, to nobody unique, it still wont uniquely mean the same, its maybe the way you associate things with, as this semester comes to an end, we’d be having few empty chairs in class, Damn, will greatly miss these people, CAT, i really dont want to write it, but then i applied and every1’s got some expectations that i would light up the paper and my score card like a christmas tree, but power failure’s are common in my system, im sure there will be a one when needed the most.

My internet connection is supposed to expire and i still dont know why its running making me browse all i want and waste my time, i wonder if all of you also feel the same, think so hard when outside and once after coming home, suddenly things are so different that you dont want to study, play the guitar or go out to McD or dont know, but im sure, it happens to all of us ( Aamer Bhai just logged into Yahoo, he’d sure kill me for my behaviour at the Iftar party and my work )anyways, interlinking things, i mean songs and lives and thoughts, its so different, all of us have an opinion about everything and anything, even though it may differ or feel weird, we do, think of the other day when you saw an ambulance and not even winked your eye twice to see if any red painted the road or wondered if the person was still alive cos you were listening to Now you got something to die for by Lamb of God, songs influence us so much, all the time i keep quiet i think of so many things, things people will never understand, things people will not accpet exist, things people are scared to take a look into, ever peeped into your mind and heart to know what you truly want or why ur here or what made u say that to her on that day ? No, almost always we regret after things end up, we wish it were not like this or what was going through my mind when i did this, there’re so many things.

I just went out to get some fresh air, thank God or whoever for air or the elements ( Btw Atheist is one of my fav bands, love the first two albums never listened to Elements album so carefully, gotta go it and write a review of it soon) wrote the review of Acrid Semblance’s From the Oblivion, think its decent will send a copy of it to Cj the bassist of the band, so what else, i dont know till when will i be able to use this internet, gotta save this soon and keep writing, i love to write on the computer, this time i have to do it in the exams too, or else i shall be doomed for eternity, the way i see it, its easy and the flip side its not, then again, i know its all in my hands.

I’ve started to read Frontline the magazine brought out by Hindu, one of my favourite news paper’s of all time, the latest edition, like always has a mix of lot of articles, be it granting autonomous status for JIPMER (Do u know the full form of JIPMER ?), Pope’s comments and reconcilations, general politics, NAM conference in Havana and the article which moved me the most was about death of Miners (Your wondering where ?), Somehow this has never been highlighted in the news of the general media, an issue like this has been sidelined and now Pervez Musharaff’s book is being dissected by the critics and the common reader alike, i really want to know how many of you know that such a mishap occured, well i did not till i read this magazine, so yes i didnt bother too but not now anymore, the name of the article “Womb of the Earth” is how miners refer to their workplaces ( read as “Core of the earth” ), that is where they daily dig for carbon, try and inhale oxygen and let industries run ( yes power plant’s still use coal if you didnt know )

This news shook me real hard and sent a shiver through my spine, i dont know how would you relate youself with all with this, but i gave a very serious thought about it all, according to government sources around 800 people have been employed to work in the mines, but in reality more than 1200 people work in the mine, exploring and risking their lives, i was suprised to know that the temporary workers or the part time people did not have any government facility promised to them so which means in case of an accident their family gets nothing but the compensation offered by the government in green notes, which god knows will reach them when, The workers had a really tuff environment to cope with, as each day passes they dig deeper and things get tuffer.

Unofficially they say its a short circuit that caused the whole mishap and well, you might want to read this line again, read it if you can, the wiring has not been changed since 3 decades, yes 3 decades, so imagine the condition the wires and connections would have been in, i need not stress on the maintanence part at all owing to the brilliant facilities offered in the depths of the earth, worst part is the only thing mechanised in the whole Mine is the elevator that takes people into the mine and the load carrying mechanism, everything else is done manually, when coal is being explored for, there are bombs that are planted so that furthur earth is checked, for this false roofts by means of Beams have to constructed which was not happening here, which directly means doom of the workers in a slight case of roof falling which is one of the most common problems in mines, there were no effective means of controlling methane gas leaking into the mines. Nothing was proper and people working here were risking their lives for peanuts, as any article would have a related photograph, there was one for this article as well.

The photograph was of a miner’s wife who died in the accident, so horrible was the body of the miner that they could not recognise it, no matter what medical test was carried out, ultimately they recognised them using the Ceramic Cap they wear which houses the light, they matched the numbers of these with the people whose database was in the record, many matched and many more did not, people were perplexed, think of the state of the relatives of the dead, their families, not even knowing who among this disfigured one’s is their husband, auncle or brother. Is it enough for the government to announce Ex-Gratia and leave the scene quitely, unfortuantely we are waking up to these kind of accidents which can be avoided, its sad to see how human’s value human life, come to think of it, you and me also belong to the same race, ultimately is this what we comprehend, is this what we believe in, is this what we truly understand ?

Music has always been my breath and heartbeat, i agree i did come the full circle to well honestly i started out listening to pop, the 1st english song video i ever saw was L.E.N - Steal My Sunshine, i still like the song :P, played now and then on Vh1, sister channel of Mtv, as time progressed i used the inernet to read more about music and artists, launch.com helped me immensely to know about artists, their fan pages and in giving more info apart from having some kick ass Radio Stations, huge fan of the Classic Rock station still \m/, Yahoo does provide some nice service if not the best of everything hate the bulk folder option in the mail thats why i never use it.

As time passed i got into rock and its derivatories, that moment i thought Limp Bizkit were an amazing band :P, yeah will always think the same about Def Leppard, one of my fav British Artists ( apart from My Dying Bride and lotsa others ) by the time i got into Metal, it took me a lot of time to digest people wrote songs about death and corpses and murders and lots of think which i could not even think of, thinking of this today, i laugh at myself how i was back then, to me Def Leppard was the best band and the best solo artist was Richard Marx, i knew each of their albums they released in the correct order, bought them all, told my pals to listen to their music and like always hated lending or copying music for my friends

Today Metal is my fav genre of music and im highly partial to its various sub genre’s the sub genre(S) topping this would be Melodic Death, Death, Extreme Power Metal ( Blood Stain Child \\m// ), Doom and Techinical to finish the list, as i listen to more metal, i believe the more i get influenced and find something more meaningful with things attached to life, leaving out emotions, as i explore more music and pals recommend me more stuff, i keep digging in more music and if possible buy them, problem is in Hyderabad you get some nice stuff on tapes, slim chance u still carry a walkman around, things will take forever to get made on a cd and go in for the distribution and eventually people buying it, marketing tricks and tips always come in the way, dont they ?

Current Fav bands are Death, Blood Stain Child, Deicide, XIV Dark Centuries ( the best symphonic metal i ever heard, still trip on their album “For Your God” ) Opeth ofcourse, for their versatality and not for their vision of making Metal and Rock hit head on, the last band i heard to was !T.O.OH!, what kinda name is that ? HOnestly nothing in a name, amazing tech death though, something that just cannot be missed, also lots of Doom is on cards to be experimented with, i really love Doom Metal ( think i didnt mention this earlier ) arguably the best Doom Metal band imo is definitely not MDB, Solitude Aerneus or Mental Home or Novembers Doom, did i miss Nortt ? Yes i did. Also bands worth mentioning at this moment are Daylight Dies ( some1 tell me more about their 3rd album please, i loved No Reply ) and diSEMBOWELMENT ( the love starts from the name its self, awesome Aussie band, sad they disbanded ).

Now Playing : Death - Crystal Mountain, gotta analyse this band’s music to the core, loving it lots these days Thats all for now, more, later.

Funny Stuff

1)  L.E.N’S Steal my sunshine is from the album - “Cant stop the bum rush”

2) I walk into a music store and ask Do u have Savage Garden’s Affirmation, He says “Sorry we dont sell perfumes”

Will add more as i recollect

Finally its here, so Happy Birthday to me, an other year went by and i didnt even know, honestly, time just slips away, we let it almost always.

Its nice to have your pals call you in the dead of the night, with shacky voices, few demanding where you’re throwing a party, few wanting to hit the bed, few wanting to cherish this certain moment with you, well what ever be it, its nice to have a voice on the other side of the phone say “Hi Vamsi” and well, what ever follows can follow like always, as i sit here writing all this ( Shridhar working his ass off to help a newbie in site management ) i dont think about anything, its 1:37am and im listening to Vader, with my music collection ever expanding and time running out like always looks like i need an iPod U2 Special Edition now ( for those of you who’re asking me what to gift me for b’day, i already made it clear)

By early morning, i would’ve messaged all my pals about my new site, Wow, it feels awesome to own a site, it feels even better to know its gifted for you birthday, i got lots of plans and need to work on them, learn lotsa techie stuff, so that i can no more bug Shridhar ( which is quite not possible, owing to the affinity i have for technical stuff ), Thank you Shridhar, for this site, there cant be a better gift, Nikhil for the thoughtful music u sent from sambar land ( yes, im buying that skirt we were discussing about for “her”, hope she likes it)

For all the pals who called till now, Haaru, Divya, Vasanth, Naresh, Rajiv, Anirudh, Vignesh and Shekar, thanks, it means a lot to me and for lots and lots and lots of online wishes by Shiva(Brigade), Aamer Gibraan(Bhai), Somya, Mohit, thanks again.